Life is a fight. Sometimes things are going to happen but you got to dig down deep and fight hard when life hits you hard. Anything can happen so you have to be on your toes at all time. I drifted from a few friends recently and it has been extremely hard on me. However, you realize things change and you need to move on. Nothing is forever. We will all die someday so our own lifes aren't infinite like time is. You cannot spend life crying and depressed. You have to spend it hunting down your dreams and fighting for what you believe in because that's the difference between living with a purpose and living just because you are on earth.

If you are naturally a very skinny guy than gaining muscle may not be that simple. However, you must try and the way to do that is to just eat like a bear. I know it sounds crazy but you got to eat everything that is not nailed down. It should be mainly healthy food that you consume but some junk food won't hurt. You basically just have to force yourself to eat because thats the only way you'll get big. You have to eat big to get big.

Secondly, you need to lift heavy. You need to go extremely heavy in the gym so you build that core strength and mass. If you go heavy it will stimulate new growth by putting imense strain on the muscle. It will also shock your body and therefore the heavy lifting along with eating big will have an anabolic effect on your body and most likely you will turn into a freak of nature. You just need to stick with it and don't get discouraged if you don't see results right away.

I'm back from Seaside. I'm glad Memorial Day Weekend is officially over. I dieted down so hard for this to the point where I became totally sick, not to mention my body is so tired and beat up from all the intense training. I did do what I set out for and that was to be the most well conditioned guy on the beach in terms of definition and being ripped however it damn near cost me my life.

However, that is the price I am willing to pay to be the best because this is all I have in my life. Its just like the way all Rocky Maricano can do is fight. I have no choice all I can is whatever happens, happens. The point is I am obsessed with winning and being in the best shape. I will do whatever it takes to please everybody because I know what is expected out of me even it does cost me my health. I have no girlfriend, very few friends, and I don't have the personality to win girls over so If I'm not 110% shredded I am worthless. We'll see what happens but only time will tell if I will be successful in the end.